Can I feel lost in my own home?

Finding myself once more again!

Change your thoughts to change your life

(Steve A.)

I am back home. After long journey which we passed from Venezuela I am sitting again in my room and I am thinking where am I. Is this place mine? Where did I grew up? Do I know this place or it is just temporary change station before the real living in my dream country? Where do I belong to?

Such a curious questions are running in my head. You know after 6 months living in the other side of the world. Enjoying every day of my life, filling it with the sun, smile and love of our family and friends. I feel weird back in “my home”. I have another questions: Where is my true home? Where is my family? Where are my friends? Am I searching the place where I do feel loved, cared, internally happy?

I believe that every person who once left its home and enjoyed stay in the foreign country had to feel the same. So many questions in your head are running after you open your own room and sit on your bed. All the history and previous experience somehow stuck in your shoulder and you do not know whether the history is obstacle or your background. I feel like going backwards instead of forward. Forward means to travel and explore. Backwards means to come back and live the same life like before.

But it will never be the same. You can compare life styles, cultures, people. I am full of little and bigger moments with our friends and family. These little patterns which are imprinted in my head, heart and soul. Nobody will take them away from me. Only death has this privilage.

I am now on the way of new life. I gave myself tasks of bringing piece of Venezuelan warm culture into our rushy and sometimes cold environment.

I would love to have the same possibilities like I had there but under our conditions and law. My “home country” is The planet Earth and no matter where I am I will live full life. I promised that to myself and I will earn the best of it.

After all the questions and thoughts, there are hidden answers. My mind became open to receive them and change them to reality. Let’s do it! Do or not to do, there is no try! I am full of energy for reaching my goals.

Soon I will share with you more…… My fight is your fight! 

Life goes on but we are the change agents!

Every my step belongs to my family. What are you doing things for?


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Young always smiling mom of 2 boys . Finished her master degree at the Economical University in Brno (Czech Republic) country in the heart of Europe. Heading new life stage with a brand new role in my future life career. I have been working for student NGO AIESEC, playing accordion for 11 years, swimming as a competitive mono flip swimmer, singing in a teenage choir and joining different hobbies when any opportunity appeared. I love traveling and exploring new countries so that's why I have been studying abroad (Finland, Thailand), working abroad (Estonia) and daddy of my kids is from Venezuela :). I am a passionate dancer too. Now working for various projects, passionate about a vegan diet.

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